Let me capture
Your likeness forever.
Look at me and
Hide your sad.
Don’t look so ugly and angry.
You will regret this.
Look happy:
To pretend.
Is anything strong enough
To wrench my lips up?
Instead:
My face is a mirror.
For once
Reflecting the hues of my emotions.
My eyes show
Red.
My mouth shows
Blue.
My eyes are
Flat.
My mouth is
Stiff and unyielding.
Arms are a
Shield.
Remember me this way:
Not part of your perfection
Your facade
Your truth and lies.
Stare at your teeth.
Their shape imprinted in my mind
Porcelain walls that willingly release
Hatred and
Delusion
Poison.
Feel it seep into my pores.
Grab hold.
Even after twenty-one years
It still hurts.
I will not smile.
